what does it really mean?

forgive and forget. it is so plain and simple. but what i want to know is why can't people forgive? i mean they can say they forgive you, but you know that they dont really forgive you. you know that they still have that anger at you. you know that noone ever really forgets. why cant people forgive? why cant people believe that people can change? is it when they show a real improvement that then people might believe that that person can change? when someone makes a mistake does anyone every really trust them not to make that mistake again? do they ever trust them again just in general? if you cross somebody so badly and then cross them again is there any chance of forgivness if that person really wants it? can someone really claim to be a godly person but yet they cant forgive? isnt god about loving thy neighbor and forgiving thoughs who have crossed you and believing that people can change?......forget your mistakes but remember what they have taught you....yes this is a very weird post...i just couldnt get these thought out of my head though.

bowling

ok well i read melissa's blog and saw her pictures so i have the need to make a post about bowling. well i love to bowl!! i actually went to go bowling the other day however i didnt get to bowl because i havea rist issue... i wasnt so sure how bad it would hurt to bowl but why take the risk to find out?...so i had to sit and watch about 12 people bowl 3 games...needless to say i was really bored...however it was really fun because the people i went with are really fun anf funny...i went with elizabeth, her boyfriend, and a bunch of her work friends, and katie, and elliot. elliot is around my age. We were origanly going to go put-putting but it started to rain so then we went bowling. now i really want to go bowling!!

driving

so i have been driving yesterday and today...it was fun i was really nervous whenever i first got behind the wheel....as most never drivers who car about not getting in a wreck. but yes i did drive! monday i drove into hot springs from malvern because we had to drop off a guy that lived there...and then today i drove all around town in central, on the bypass, on the highway, in corner stone, by the school, and then i drove from magic springs to my house! so i drove a lot!! coach pennigton says that im a good driver so i think thats a good thing. i like to drive! its scary once you first start to drive but then you stop being scared and your just paying attention to what you are doing. its a good feeling to know that i can drive and that other people believe in me and know and tell me that i am a good driver.

life

well its summer time but im taking drivers ed. so its not really summer yet...but i guess now it is because drivers ed. is finally over and im going to drive the 10th of this month so yeah...anyways i asked dad tonight if i could go to a baseball game and he asked who i would be meeting and i said emily and he said he didnt know. that usually means no so im probley not going. i dont really ever go anywhere with my friends im normally just at the house (one of the two), softball (games or practices), or out somewhere with the parents...which isnt a bad thing it would just be nice to hangout with my friends watching a baseball game. i have a softball game this thursday so woo fun....we had practice yesterday and we had to hit....i didnt do so great... i didnt do bad or anything i did hit the majority of the balls but i didnt do as well as i could have. i believe it has a lot to do with the fact that i havent actually hit in about 3 weeks. because we have been out of school for about a week and a half and then the last week and a half of school we didnt have practice....we had a game last thursday but i didnt get to hit because we had already lost and they didnt finish the last inning...i dont reall yknow why...so im hoping that we wont lose to fast this week so i can hit. we have a number of games so thats goign to be fun adn i will get to hit. anyways i hope yall have a good summer

barefoot contessa

yes i did take jennifers title however i do have a reason. i love to watch the food network and as some of you may know i am a pretty darn good bakery if i do say so my self...so one day i plan to go to college graduate and open my own bakery...no not breads....just pastries so i guess it will be a pastry bakery....now i havent thought of a name yet...?any suggestions?....but yes i am going to open a bakery....so the church has decided to make a cook boos and dad and beverly want me to enter a couple of my recieps to it...now i did enter one and is a GREAT cheesecake! but they want me to enter more....im no trying to be rude but i really dont want to....i want to keep me ideas for delightful pastries just for me and my bakery i will not run the risk of haveing to recreate my ideas just so i can publish them in a cookbook....now i know i wont be in college for 3 years and then another 4-5 years (maybe more) of college...(i want to know everything i can about pastry making)..even though thats a long time aways i have high expectations for my bakery and my life like most people my age...oh and melissa if you are ready this next time you come down i will make a cheese cake so you can try it....that is all and i hope you guys have a good rest of the weekend

graduation

so im finally starting to add hearders to my blog posts which i really hard! i never know what to put but anyways today it is graduation!...im going to elizabeths gradution party at the chursh later...thats all

Sports and my life

softball is finally over...i turn in all my stuff tomorrow except for my practice stuff because we will be getting new stuff next year i cant wait!!! the only games we will have are thrusdays.....whats going on is that every thursday this summer we should be having atleast 2 games at lakeside i cant wait for that! also i have signed up for volleyball tryouts now as you may know i was on the volleyball team my 8th grade year and i was pretty good if i do say so myself....i tried out my 9th grade year and didnt make it because we had gotten a new coach and that coach did not like me (several other coaches had told me they couldnt believe i didnt make it) well i was crushed! i loved volleyball so much it was my sport!! until recently i havent thought about trying out because i have been so ocupied with softball (i do love softball) so i signed up for volleyball without knowing weather or not i want to try out....i dont think i could handle not making it again...(i do believe that i have a good shot at making it because coach back is the coach and she doesnt have anything against me)...i will probley end up trying out and believe me i will try my hardest and i told dad that and he believed me i also told him that if i make it i will be happy but if i dont i wont be so upset as i was last year if i dont make it.... but the more i think about it the more i relize i love volleyball and im not so sure if ill be ok if i dont make it......i know there is always softball i am awear of that and i will tryout for softball next year ( no doubt about that) but im just hoping that when i got to tryouts May 17th from 8:00 to 10:00 i am going to try my best and pray i make the team so i can get back into the game that i love so much and get back in the swing of volleyball!! (i will need to start practiing again serving...hitting...passing....everything)...(it has been more than a year since i have actually practiced) so pray that i can do my best and make the team.....i really cant wait till next year because if i do make the volleyball team i will be able to a sport i love for half the year till season is over and then the second half of the year i will another sport that i love to play softball (as long as i make softball which i really hope i do)....that is all i have to say i love you all very much and please pray that i can do my best at volleyball tryouts and make the team...i will try my very best